Thoughts about what I need.

So yesterday I was turned down by the 3rd company I've with which I've interviewed. It was the same responses as the last two, "We really liked you, but found someone more qualified."

Oh, was a blow to my fragile ego this is! To think, somewhere, not just in the world, but in the South Shore of Massachusetts, there lives not one, but three people who are better than me in some capacity. I don't know how I'm going to handle this.

Of course, my Mom and Dad assured me (as I sniffled the bad news to them over the phone) that if those companies really knew me, they'd have hired me on the spot. This was the same assurance they gave me back in high school when I was the only girl without a date for Valentine's Day.

My best friend Krista then dropped by with some literal tea and sympathy, as I also happened to develop a nasty head cold yesterday and was in extra need of comfort.

I actually have an interview today with a company in Weymouth called Servpro, which does emergency restorations after flood and fire damage, etc. I have to admit I'm not feeling particular confident about this meeting given that my nose is red and dripping slightly, I'mb talkin lige dhis, and I'm slightly doped up on DayQuil. Is there a professional way to blow your nose during an interview?

"Excuse me, but I have to take this." Blows loudly into Kleenex.

The most difficult thing to deal with is not that I've been rejected three times, although that does sting. It's that I feel like my life is on hold right now. In a pay-to-play world, I feel like I can't do any of things I was to do. Plans to fix up the home, take a trip to Germany, start a family, are all being put off because we don't have the funds for it.

In the Bible, Jesus assures us that God cares for the sparrows, and we are worth so much more than birds! God knows what I need, and he will provide.

I have to ask myself, why is it that I don't need a job right now? Maybe the right one hasn't come up, or there's something else I'm supposed to be doing right now?

In the meantime, all I can do is keep believing, keep applying, and keep my eyes open for new possibilities.

How Twilight should have ended:

As atheists roll out London ads, believers unruffled

"The Atheist Bus Campaign organizer, a young comedienne named Ariane Sherine, took exception last June to several London buses swathed with biblical quotes, placed by Christian fundamentalists.

Her idea to fund a few challenge ads took off; donors sent in $200,000 in two days. Ms. Sherine was joined by Oxford zoologist Richard Dawkins, a leading British atheist and author of "The God Delusion."

He predicted anger from believers. "They have to take offense, it is the only weapons they've got," Mr. Dawkins said as the first bus rolled through the streets of London. "They've got no arguments."

But the response by most faith leaders isn't quite what was expected."

That response was a collective, "Eh."

The line from Richard Dawkins made me chuckle. Sounds like he was making a hypothesis based on a given that turned out to have been derived from his personal world view (i.e. "Anyone who is religious is stoopid."). Kinda irrational for an objective scientist, don't you think?

My reaction is the same as the believers in the article. Our faith has gone through thousands of years of persecutions, critics, revolutions, and revivals, and they expect a couple billboard signs to bring us crumbling to our knees?

As for Dawkins, maybe seeing one assumption proven wrong will cause him to reevaluate the rest of his beliefs?

Probably not, but hey, I am a person of faith.

Cute

Sad Day

My career counselor called me and said not to come in, because he doesn't have any jobs for me today.

Well, I guess it's time to find more lame stuff on the Internet.

Still No Job

I interviewed with another company on Monday, but was told that they turned me down because another candidate was willing to work cheaper. Well, all I can say is you get what you pay for! Not that I'm implying anything untoward about the other candidate, I'm sure she's a very nice girl.

So, today I'm headed back to the Quincy Career Center to talk to my career counselor. The last time we spoke it wasn't very encouraging.

Counselor: Wow, your resume looks great! You have good skills and experience!

Me: Really?

Counselor: Yes, too bad there aren't any jobs out there.

It's been a little discouraging that I haven't found work yet, but all my free time has given me the chance to find lame stuff on the internet.

Sent to me from my friend Garrett:

The Impossible Quiz

Of course, this is only after I've scoured the internet looking for job postings. Honest.

Happy New Year!

New Year's Resolutions are routinely broken, so I've decided that for this year I'm going to make opposite resolutions, so that when I break them, I'll actually be happy about it.

Meghan's Resolutions for the year 2009:

1. Spend less time in prayer and devotion to God
2. Gain 100 pounds
3. Stay unemployed
4. Be a worse wife
5. Stop taking embarrassing pictures of my dog

I'm off to a bad start already - this is going to be a great year!